I went on a business trip this week and I am not all back yet.
Fuck, I don’t even have words. There’s too many places to start, too many new emotional avenues.
could talk about how it felt to be the youngest person at a swanky
business dinner by a good 20 years, and the resounding clink of my glass
against my boss’ as we stood as humans listening to music in a bar
together and not employer-employee. How it felt to know that my charm
works as well outside of the office as it does inside, and to know that I
am a welcomed presence. It kinda gives me a whole lot to think about.
Is there an actual future here for me? Could I spend a few years working
hard for these guys and actually get somewhere? Can my short-term goals
already have changed this completely?
My goals haven’t changed. They just seem so intangible right now.
Fuck, everything seems so intangible right now.
in another head-in-the-clouds phase, where my body is present but I am
most definitely somewhere else.
I’ll make eye contact and hold
conversation, but I’m out flying.