Suppose I asked you if you would have done anything differently and you said “yes.”
who have been my adopted mentor for about longer than I’ve been a
functioning human and I realize even now how wholly I would accept your
teachings, granting “words of wisdom” as a tag to any that you’ve thrown
the pang I feel then, being outside looking in, watching your sidekick
scribble by flashlight as the music surrounds us, drawing us together. I
can clutch the hand of my sweetheart but yours is at home, and I
presume you are separated by the mundanities of adulthood that can now
only be escaped one at a time, with someone always left behind to
shoulder the load.
Do you wish for full escape?
wonder if you are here only halfheartedly, the residue of
responsibility ever simmering on your back burners, making your time
Or, perhaps, this is everything you’ve dreamed.
Perhaps the dancing ponytail of a ten year old girl was the perfect date,
the fulfillment of twinkling eyes now by your side for Thursday night blues rock shows.
I do like to think you’ve always been meant for old houses filled with guitars,
the loudness of happy children, dusty books of poetry
with spines bent and bent again.
I’d be lying if I said that same arrangement didn’t lay heavy on my mind.
halcyon dream, a vision that once filled my skin with excitement, the
blood lust for a baby of my own... but now I wonder when I place my lips
against my lover’s if one day our union will cause the same separation,
that these pockets of weeknight outings will be experienced alone.
Your date dances with the apathy
of youthfully ignorant bliss,
but I wonder if you’d rather kiss
a lover’s lips.